Matthijs Walhout

Amsterdam, NL

co-founder, at7 project space

+31 (0)6 521 216 83

Broedplaats LELY
Schipluidenlaan 12 F
1062 HE Amsterdam NL

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Cupio dissolvi (Rapture)
Cupio dissolvi (Rapture)
(…) This is the part in the text where I've come to expect an epiphany, a revelation, something euphoric that enraptures the train of thought and brings about 'great shouts and leaps (possibly of a ritual nature)'36, an overcoming of challenges, an encouragement. This is where I've come to expect—almost to want—that a 'man ... perceives a heavenly light, a light that comes from heaven.'37 But what if I am not this man, not a man at all.
If God, the Son, is really the Word, Logos, then, here, in Paul's body, in my own, in my dysphoric silence, He has deserted us. Paul is, I am, at loss38. We stand ‘between two’39, our body, Paul's, mine, ours; naked. If the Word is Verbing, it is sighing, groaning, wanting, lacking—words that have us stand outside language. (…)
All these dwellings are temporary

[violently oscillating]
[violently oscillating]

Sorry, Nothing is Everything
Cupio dissolvi (Rapture)
Cupio dissolvi (Rapture)
Extend. Limn
Extend. Limn
June 2016
June 2016 (pp.70-71)
I would like to say
I would like to say (part 2)
[violently oscillating]
[violently oscillating]
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- Connor, Randy P. (1993). Blossom of bone. Reclaiming the connections between homoeroticism and the sacred. New York: HarperCollins. pp.262-263. Photo of the Sisters of Perpetual Indulgence: Jean-Baptiste Carhaix
- Galland, China (1990). Longing for darkness. Tara and the Black Madonna. A ten-year journey. New York: Penguin Books. Front endpaper and dust-jacket flap
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- Roscoe, Will (1995). Queer spirits. A gay men’s myth book. Boston: Beacon Press. Front cover. Design: Chip Kidd, image: Jerry N. Uelsmann
- (1993). The holy Bible. King James version. Iowa Falls: World Bible Publishers. Front cover
- Leyland, Winston (ed.) (1983). My deep dark pain is love. A collection of Latin American gay fiction. San Fransisco: Gay Sunshine Press. Back cover
Cupio dissolvi (Rapture)
Extend. Missing u